*Rachel* aka Piglet

...and listen good, I don't owe you any money. You signed the lease saying i gave you the deposit and Aprils Rent, nothing about electric or phone. So there is nothing you can do about that. And another thing, don't get all up on my case because who ever this person is started talking shit and I didn't know who the fuck it was. Baby shit like this is something I don't want. Maybe you should fucking tell your friend or family or who ever the FUCK it is posting shit in my journal should just stop. I didn't do anything. Why would you read my journal or that person. It is my journal. For those people that are my friends. You are not my friend. So you want this shit to stop, tell this person to just fucking stop this shit. I didn't do anything. This person just fucking started talking all this shit. And Kelly, I am sorry. That's all I can say. And who's fucking car did I fuck up Sharlyn? I am not giving you money, I just want to never talk, see, or have anything to do with you. That is why I moved out. And by the way, I made more money than you. You are getting $800 of MY money when the lease is up. Don't bitch about the electic. We had an agreement so there is nothing to do.


Listen, my life has been so much better now that I don't live with you. And I want it to continue. Just stay out of my journal, my life and never post in here again.

I am a Conspiracy Nut

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.....sitting at a Moose's house. Watching Pretty Women. Just thought that the world should know that!!

.....LIVE JOURNAL!! If you aren't part of LIVE JOURANAL then don't read. Especially, girls that I don't want anything to do with. The reason for moving out with people so you don't have to talk to them anymore. I want nothing to do with Sharlyn. If you could just stay the fuck out of my life everything would be good. You would find someone to beat the fuck out of me? Okay, well....if you had a problem, come to me and talk to me. The whole point of having a journal, is so I can type what is going on in my life. If you don't like it, don't fucking read it. And since when do I have crabs? What world do you live in? That's just like me saying 'You skinny bitch' Come on, somethings are just not true! But you have a good fucking day hoe* While you are at it, get a life and stop worrying about my life. I am perfect. Now that you are not in my life, everything has finally made sence.

what decade does your personality live in?


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Rich I am so sorry that I didn't come over last night. I went out about 10:45 and got home about 11:45. Cara didn't feel like driving all the way out there...I am so sorry. I miss you so much. I am going to do all I can to come and see you. I cry myself to sleep almost every night because you aren't next to me. I love you so much Eeyore.
I can't wait till the day that I can wake up to you every morning again. I am going to get insurance on Friday and maybe come and spend the night at your dad's. I love you so much. I miss you. I wish I could just kiss you soft lips right now. I am not lying when I say this, I can't wait till the day we get married. To take our relationship to the next step. It gives me goose-bumps just thinking about it. I love you so much Richard Kevin Smolen and I will never stop loving you.


Last night Cara and I went to Oscar's house because they said they were having a party. Well we got there and there were like 6 people. They were all like 15-18 years old. Oscar is pasted out in the bathroom with Stephaine(girlfriend) and Shawn and his girlfriend are sitting on the couch and Brad is walking around. Justin is drunk-as-hell and being a dick. I had to get his keys from him so he didn't drive home. He didn't even know I took them that is how drunk he was and we were talking when I took them. But then that little s.o.b fell asleep and Cara and I and everyone else started to draw all over his face, legs and stomach. The little fucker is a dick. I hate him.


Anyway, I just want to say that I am really sorry Rich. I am going to do all I can to come and see you soon. I love you so much Eeyore. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3



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....I live with the biggest(literally) and a 'Thug'. The 'Thug' is nothing but a whimpering little baby that can't handle a little alcohol and go crazy. Get's all crazy, punches holes in walls, threatens to hit me because I stood up to him, un- like his girlfriend. I don't take anyone's shit. Well maybe just Rich's. But that is a lot different. I just don't understand, he has been drinking since god only knows how long and he still doesn't know how much he can handle or not. He has been home for one month and he still doesn't know. That is a sack of shit. What Would Jesus Do?(LoL) Friday night, he got in my face and I don't deal with people in my face. Then after I started to yell at him, he sat down and started to preach to me. "This is where my head lyes; I want peace in my house; everyone should be happy" Then the next fucking night, he is drinking and getting violent. That sounds a lot like God right there. FUCK THAT!!!! I don't understand stupid people.

I think I am going to go and loose my life. Rich is going to drive.

The home that I am living in is BULL SHIT!!!!! The fact that I don't feel safe in my house is not the way that I want to live. I need to leave that. I have to go home because Rich and I can't be together anymore. I want to get owe own apartment but we can't afford it right now. He needs to live somewhere eles but he has no way to get to work. I wish everything would be okay. But I know that it isn't going to work out the way I want it to. It sucks. Guy and Sharlyn aren't the people that I want to be living with. I don't want to leave Rich. I love him so much. I cant't leave him alone there. I am hungry. I go to White Hen now....

...I guess. Nothing has really happen to me in the last couple of weeks. Uh, Rich got a job making mucho money. Very happy for that. I am going to be getting the internet at my house so I will always be on. Uh, I have a Gastronemes things. I don't know what it is. It hurts, finding out soon if it is a bacteria. Uh, yea not much of anything else. Haven't talked to Cara in a long time. Her and Matt broke up again. Maybe she will have time for me now. Before she was always over. Matt came back and 'no time for Rachel' I don't know. I don't care anymore. What ever happens, happens.

Hey I haven't written in a long time. I moved out of my parents house and don't make the kind of money to get the internet...but soon I will. Haven't been doing much. Working, sleeping, loving Rich, and trying to deal with things....I would rather not say at this time. But yea, I don't really know what to talk about. I love Richard. It is unbelievable that we are living together. We always say, Hey, you know we are living together? It is incrediable! Anyway, I started to hang out with Cara again. I tell ya, I really missed that girl a lot. We have a lot of fun now. She started going out with Matt again. I need a better job. I only make enough to pay rent. And get groceries sometimes. I owe my parents like $200 so I got to get a better job. I hope that I get one with Rich's mom. I should get paid about $7 hr. Hopefully. But I don't know. But I am going to go and talk to my frien.

I got my own apartment now! YAY!!! Its great. All I ever do anymore is sleep, work, or spend time with Rich. Spending time with Rich is the only really good thing. But I got my own apartment with Sharlyn so thats good to in my life. I started to talk to Cara again. I never reaziled how much I miss her as a friend. She's a lot of fun and I really missed her. But her an I are going to the movies on Sunday. We hung out before I slept at her house...well really all we did is going out with Nick and Larry and cause a mess but it was really fun still. I really love Richard. We have been doing really good lately. Hopefully he moves in soon. I dont really know much else to write about so I am going to go and go home.

I know I haven't written in a long ass time. I haven't had time. I work and it was my birthday weekend. I haven't been up to much lately just working and hanging out with my love and Sharlyn. Rich and I have been great! I mean great. In the last 2 months about we have had like 3 times where we weren't that good. 2 with him and 1 with me. But we have been peerrrrrrfeeeccctt. I can't wait to see him tomorrow. We are spending Turkey Day together and then I am sleeping at his house. I miss him so much right now.
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I slept at his house tonight and it was GREAT!!! I love him so much. He is over right now we are about to watch Suicide Kings. Hope its good.....I bought it like 1 month ago and it is still in the wrapper. I love him a lot. I'm going to Cali with Sharlyn in January! I talked it over with Rich and he said that it would be okay. I just wanted to make sure that he would be okay with it because I feel bad leaving him for 2 weeks. I hope that him and I could spend New Years together. You know for that one kiss at mignight to start the new year off. :D Well he is a tard and can't open the box....so I'm going to go. I love him so much!

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.


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With Richard Kevin Smolen. I am going to see him today. It our 1 yaer amd 2 months together! :) I am going to get a pair of awesome boots. I am excited. I was supposed to go to a prison tonight.But I'm not anymore.

The hate for one person could grow to hate everyone.

This thing called "life" is going okay. I guess. It is just going on....time passes, things don't really happen. But oh well...hopefully things will brighten up someday soon. I love the movie Chicago..I just bought the sound track and the movie poster. Greatest movie ever! But anywho, Cara still will not leave me alone. She wants to hang out with me so wants to be friends with me. La Da Da Da Da!!!! I don't! She does't get the hint. Oh well. I slept at Sharlyn's last night. We went around and silly stringed peoples car's. She stole a scare crow and a at. They were cute. I went up to some car and silly stringed them. Good times good times. Then went to Jewel and got hair dye. Dyed Sharlyn's hair and went to bed. Yea....I slept at Riches on Friday. Watched movies and talked and went to sleep. I love him with all my heart. GOD!!! He is the greatest!!! Ahhhhh.....sooo in love. But got to go wash out hair dye out of my head...Bye Bye

I miss him so much! I saw him about 2 days ago. I slept at his house on Friday. Thinking didn't go as usual But oh well. Thinkings are kind of good. I just really miss him so much. I want to really marry him. I know thats a really big jump. But I really do. I can't see myself with anyone else ever again. His smile, his eyes, his way that he touches me, and everything that he says to me. I love him soooo much! I hope that him and I stay together....wish us good luck. :):):):):):)

I've moved. It is smaller...but oh well. At least I don't live next to the tracks anymore. :) Well, Cara and I aren't friends. I can't really take her anymore. To much stress for one person. Rich and I are great. I miss him alot. Going to see him tomorrow. :) :) :) :) :) :) I'm excited. Shar and I are going to see her boyfriend in jail on Sunday. I haven't seen him in a long time either. Then we are hanging out with DOnut, Greg, Paul, Max?????, and well duh Shar. I haven't hung out with them in like 3 years. It is going to be great. Well...my wrist is really starting to hurt more...I think I fractered it again. Pitty me. Love you all......oh I work 2 jobs now....so I probably won't be on much. But let me know you people that read this are still alive sometimes.....I wonder about you......